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Friday, February 25th, 2005
10:18 am	Update Time! It's been a little while since I last had a real good post, and since I'm sitting at Spalding doing nothing (as usual) I'd figured now would be a good time.  I should probably start off by saying that yesterday I saw Constantine....to be honest, I'm not quite sure how I feel about it.  The effects were sweet, but once again, it was full of Keanu Reeves' usual one liners.  It was kinda creepy at times, you get to see what hell and heaven looks like....and the herione was hot.  I give it a B.....minus. Yeah, a B- I finally got to level 29 last night....almost to my goal of 30!  Once I get there, I'm gonna shoot for 35!  Vicky is so insane at that game that it's sad.  Ryan and I just can't keep up with her. Let's see....what else?  I have to work a lot this weekend, but I'm gonna have the house to myself cause my parents are visiting my sister in Alabama.  Lol, not making my bed in the morning is a great feeling (my mom is real anal about that)! I think that's about it for right now, my day has rocked so far! ~Hee-Ter~ Day #174  Current Mood: cheerful (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
12:06 pm	Came from Jesse B.'s LJ This is here because you told me to put it here Uno, lol If you woke up, and I was in bed next to you, what would your first thought be? (Now put this in your journal and see what mine would be...) Sorry about my last post, I really think I was having a bad day/pms day or something...didn't mean to freak anybody out if I did! ~Hee-Ter~ Day #183 Current Mood: happy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
11:58 pm	So much to do, so little time.... ***Disclaimer: This post is kinda/sorta/is depressing (sorry, I had to get it out)*** Have you ever just felt like you had a million things to do and no time to do them?  Yeah, defintely feeling that right now.  I think what my problem is, is that I don't want to do anything else.  I thought I was handling this internship thing pretty well, but I was wrong, it's really getting tough.  I wish I wasn't so clingy/needy....  I think, "Man, I need to get started on my Psychology work" but then I'll think of Danny and get depressed and won't wanna do anything.  I feel like a complete idiot that I'm letting this get to me.  I don't want him to know about this cause I don't want him to feel bad, that's the last thing I want. Also, I fucking hate my job.  Fucking hate it.  I'm trying to think of another place to work that doesn't involve retail, and I wish I could work somewhere that was like, an office job or something.  I feel like I'm trapped in the movie "Office Space" except instead of cubicles/desks, I have cash registers.  For the first time in my life I want time to go by, I want time to fly.  I want to wake up in the morning and it be summer time, with no homework and me flying down to see Danny.  This is by far the worst I've felt in a while... I'm sorry this is such a depressing post, but I've been holding all this in because I wanna look/be strong for myself and everyone else.  It feels like everyone's eyes are watching, waiting to see if me and him are gonna make it....I hate this.  I hate not having someone to kiss and hold and be happy with.  I hate seeing couples holding hands and looking so happy.  It literally makes me ill and sick to my stomach, it's so unfair that those people have someone right there, and mine is hunderds of miles away, beyond my reach.  It's been a long time since I missed one person this much, probably about 9 or 10 years (when my Grandma died) so that's saying a lot. I'm just sick of crying and having headaches and feeling sad.  I seriously think I have cried at least one tear every single day, seriously.  And it's not even because he may not have called me right on time, etc.  But I'll start feeling really lonely, and then it's downhill from there.  I wish I could go back in time and fix everything, just anything that's ever made me or the people I love sad.  I've finally realized that now that I'm older, life is the most unfair thing on this earth.  Everytime I think I'm all right, something happens, or someone will say something.  People see me and they are like "oh, I can't believe how well your doing!" and "man, I couldn't do it" and the truth is, I'm not sure how I'm surviving this fucking piece of shit internship myself.  This internship is probably the fucking biggest waste of time on this fucking planet.  He seriously is down there making McDonald's fries and serving churros for 6.25 for 50 or so hours a week.  Someone please explain to me why a person would do that to themselves, because I have no fucking clue. I fucking hate this I'm done venting, I need to find something to keep me busy. ~Heather~ (I don't fucking feel like making a sig.)    Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
12:38 pm	Tee hee, I got my V-day gift early.... If the title of this post didn't give it away, I got my gift from Danny a little early.  I knew that he was sending it early, I just didn't know when to expect it!  So here's what happened:  I come home on like, Thursday or Friday (can't remember which day) and find a box sitting on my bed.  I proceed to open it and find a dozen pink (my fav!) roses mixed with 11 hot pink tulips (not sure why 11, but oh well) and a poem (which was quite romantic) that he wrote for me.  I had a good cry after that..... Anyhow, I'll write more later because I need to look busy here in the office.. Damn, they are now officially playing the saddest freaking song on earth, I cry every time I hear this damn song............... ~Hee-Ter~ Day: #191 Current Mood: My head hurts.... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
12:25 pm	Sorry bout this quiz guys.... You are Romantic You are romantic. You are just like me sometimes. You love the classic Romeo and Juliet movies, how love usually conquers all. People might think of you as girly, and cute, but you are really serious when it comes to love. You yearn to have a boyfriend (if you don't have one) and you know you will treasure that friendship forever. Your first kiss may mean a big thing to you, if you haven't gotten it yet. You fall for romantic songs, moonlight serenades, and yes, cute boys. You are sweet to both genders, and small kids, and respectful for elders. You will be a very good wife and mother. Oh yeah! Please Rate and Message! What's The Girl Inside of You? .:BEAUTIFUL Anime Pics AND Music!:. (UPDATED!) brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
12:15 pm	Lol, sorry guys, you can't take this one (unless you really wanna see what you would be if you were a girl) Well, nothing much really going on today, I have meeting with my Finaical (sp) advisor and start my retirement fund O_o  Seems kinda early, but I guess I gotta start sometime Lmao, Danny is gonna call this guy I work with (Brad).  I'm not sure if I've ever talked about this winner before, but he's a Senior at St.X who seems to think that me going to prom with him is okay.  Every freaking day I work he harasses me about going to prom with him, and I assure him that's not gonna happen, but he can't get it through his thick skull.  Anyhow, yesterday (Tuesday) Brad and I got into a big fight because he apparently is talking to Chris Merrifield about who I dated in high school and my relationship with Danny.  So Danny is gonna give him a call and let him know just how he feels about all that.  I can't wait to get a new job, I wish Kohl's would hurry up and call me (I applied for a job there). I'm gonna go shopping with Vicky tonight to finish up Danny's Valentine's Day gift.  I have to get it early and send it to Florida because obviously I can't just hand it to him.  Maybe I can talk her into DDRing tonight! :) Well, sorry to talk your all's ears off, see everyone later! ~Hee-Ter~ Day # 197 Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
12:10 pm	"Tie her hair up in ribbons and bows, sign her letters with X's and O's" Wow, haven't heard that song in a while, I forgot who sings it..... Sorry, it's been a while since I've updated.  I looked at my last post and realized how violent it was...lol.  I need to calm down. My first day at Spalding (yesterday) went pretty good, my effective speaking class is gonna be fucking crazy, the professor seems like a big, floppy donkey dick....I have to speak in front of the entire class on thursday.  Yeah, we hadn't even been sitting there for 15 min. when he told us our first speech was this week.  If I could've taken a snapshot of everyone's face, it would have been perfect for one of those mastercard commercials...... One Semester Tuition: $4,000 One Parking Pass: $15 Effective Speaking Book: $25 Speaking in front of 25 people on the 4th day of class: Priceless Fucking school Let's look at the positive: On the plus I'm level 24, I got it last night.... Danny and I are doing exceptionally well (I might be going to see him from Apr.29-May 2 After today, I have the next two days off Well, I guess that's about it, today I got my results back from that Career Test I took, I get to go see what professionals think I should do with the rest of my life (yay.) I was gonna go to McDonald's but now I won't have time because of that Career thing...*groans* I'm hungry.... Talk to ya'll later, ~Hee-Ter~ Day # 198 Current Mood: hungry (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 27th, 2005
12:41 am	Quick Rant I hate when people don't answer their f**cking phones, it really pisses me the f*ck off Current Mood: pissed off (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
11:59 am	Nothing much going on, just hanging out In your eyes, people see kindness... You're just so... so... so... Sweet! You're kind and love to give others in need, a helping hand. You're pretty shy but can be warm and friendly towards those you know, and those who know you best. Your sanctuary would just be any place that is warm, cozy, and inviting to all people. You love to show signs of affection to your lover but a small simple talk does the trick as well ;) Sadly, your kindness can be used to your disadvantage. People can use you, and take advantage over your sweet and sensitive mind.... But fear not! With you being so kind and generous, people look up to you and adore you ^-^ No one would dare hurt you because they can't bear the thought of your sweet smile turning into a frown :) What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics) brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
11:55 am	I need to take quizzes more often! Well, I've been doing all right, keeping a stiff upper lip and all that stuff. Vicky and Ryan came over on Monday and we watched Hero and ordered pizzas. Man, Hero is a freaking crazy awesome movie. It's one of those movies that can be considered art before anything else. Everything in it is so surreal and colorful....I really enjoyed it ^-^ I've come to find out that the only problem with Danny being gone that I'm gonna have is me getting jealous... yesterday he called and told me that him and his roomies hung out with two girls across the hall from him. For some reason this pissed me off (which I let him know). He was like "Heather, they know about you, I showed them your picture, they think your pretty....calm down please." Maybe I just over react to much? Maybe I should work on that while he's is gone...                                                 *****Subject Change!***** Attention James! If you get WoW, be sure to get on the Dalaran server, and make at least one of your characters Alliance (you can have as many as you want) I told Vicky and Ryan about you getting it, they're pretty hype about it! I guess that's pretty much it, I meeting with this finicial (sp) advisor today, I really don't wanna, but I need to set up my mutal funds (woohoo) Talk to ya'll later, ~Hee-Ter~ Day # 204 Current Mood: okay (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
2:52 am	You are the color pink. As a beautiful and sweet human, you are everybody's favorite person. Healthy and energetic, you're often seen spreading the happines. As an unusually charming and sweet person, you're always ready to comfort people who are down. You sympathize with everyone, but not always yourself. Aside from that, you are light-hearted and cheery. And you make it your duty to make every cloud have What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!) brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Monday, January 24th, 2005
12:06 pm	Day Number 1 Danny left for Florida today, thus beginning his 7 months internship.  206 days of Disney World! Even though I'm gonna see him way before he gets back, I figured counting down the days would be a good time anyway.  I've been doing fine, I haven't cried since he left (he told me he was proud of me) because I promised him I wouldn't.  Actually, I'm suprised that I haven't been more upset.  I think it's cause I got it all out on Saturday night (I had a sob fest on his shoulder/chest).  I know I'm gonna be okay! Today I'm gonna spend the day doing nothing and play WoW, I am determined to get to lvl 25, it's gonna happen.  I need to start thinking of a gift for Vicky, her b-day is this sunday....I can't believe she's gonna be twenty! (I can't believe I will be 20 in October!)  My mom is making my favorite dish tonight (Chicken Fettichini biaotch!)  Maybe she feels sorry for me now that Danny's gone? I'm gonna get off here and play some compy games! Later, ~Hee-Ter~  Day #: 206 Current Mood: happy (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 21st, 2005
10:29 am	Ahhhh Friday..... Friday is finally here, and what a long week it has been. It was also my last week of school, I have a week off, then I start my next two classes (Effective Speaking and Life Development Psychology) Can't you tell how excited I am about about those two winners.... ; I'm concerned about a recent post in Jesse B.'s LJ. He doesn't like girls that much anymore, apparently someone was mean to him. I feel bad for him, cause personally I've always enjoyed his advice and humor, but I have a gut feeling that I'm one of the ladies that triggered his anger....  I guess if your reading this I'm sorry, I guess I always thought of you as a good friend, I'm not sure you ever considered me anything else (you've never said anything that I know of) I hope you feel better, it's unfortunate that someone was mean to you. Today I have to work from 12:45 to 5:15, probably one of the most useless shifts I've ever seen, but hey, money is money. Tonight Danny and I are doing something, I'm not sure what, but hey, as long as I'm with him (three more days until his flight...) I think we are gonna party hard tomorrow with his family (they are all in their 20's) I catch myself thinking about him leaving, and I always get upset at the strangest times. For example, the other day I was eating a McChicken sandwich from McDonald's, and the song "I Miss You" by Blink 182 came on, and I remember eating that damn sandwich with tears streaming down my face. I probably looked like a fool.... My stomach hurts, I think I have gas....stupid pizza (I ate that last night) Either I'm lactose intolerent, or dairy produced just give me bad gas.... (sorry for sharing that one guys, just getting out my thoughts) I'll talk to everyone later ~Hee-Ter~ Current Mood: This weekend is gonna rock! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
1:02 pm	Quiz stolen from Jesse.... Take this quiz, it's awesome! ~Hee-Ter~ Current Mood: I'm seeing Danny tonight (Comment on this)
1:01 pm	Kip Dynamite (Please rate my quiz) Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 13th, 2005
1:30 pm	Buying time as usual... Today I learned that enjoying video games/electronics and having people skills in a weird mix.....  Let me explain Today I took this evalutation test about what my interests are and what I should possibly persue as a future career.  Anyhow, this guy from Spalding (who was kinda cute ^_^) was asking me these questions, and when I told him I enjoy video games and talking to people, he seemed quite baffled....I said "what's wrong?" and he was like "ohh, I just don't hear that often, video games AND people skills....nice mix". I guess I'm a complete freak of nature, I want to stay with my b/f while he's away (which everyone thinks is retarded for some reason) and I like video games and people....... Speaking of video games, we got permission to start a guild last night (Me, Ryan, and Vicky) we decided on the name "The Myrmidon" cause the name "The Returners" (what we originally wanted, was taken) Ryan says the Myrmidon where some shape shifter peeps who were from greek lore, and they apparently kicked a lot of ass....whatever, as long as the name sounds cool.  Now we just gotta get like 5 other people to sign up and we can actually be "proclaimed" a guild.  Ryan and I are gonna get on tonight so we can catch up with Vicky, because she's crazy and never stops playing that damn game..... I got ten minutes to walk two feet to my class (because Spalding is tiny!) but I think I'll go ahead and get off here Talk to you fellas later ~Hee-Ter~ Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 12th, 2005
1:22 pm	Finally!! (cause I couldn't post yesterday) Seeing as I was completely unaware that you couldn't post, I typed up this big long post just to discover that it wasn't gonna happen!! Argh.... So let's see if I can remember any of my post from yesterday.... Well, first of all I'm buying time before my math class at 1:50, so I have about 30 minutes to jabber on here.  After class I have a doctor's appointment, and then me and Danny are gonna go to the mall, eat, and possibly play football (I'm excited about it) I've started a countdown to the day that he's leaving....I have 10 more days with him!  It feels as though it's right around the corner.  I've decided that I'm going to go visit him on March the 11th through the 14th or 15th, and I may have to fly because I seriously don't see anyone else going down with me that soon.  By March I should have about $550-600 in the bank, which hopefully should be enough (considering it's half off hotels and free entry into the parks)  I'm nervous about possibly flying down there (I've never done it) But hey, if it means seeing him, then I'm getting over that fear.  Isn't the saying something corny like "Face your Fears??" I guess that's what I get to do in 2 months... I've decided that Warcraft is the most addicting game ever, next to Mario or Sonic.  Every night I've stayed up to like, 1 or 2 playing this damn game, it's so bad for my health.  Me and Pepe decided that we are gonna start a guild, everyone we know is invited (of course) so everyone should get this game just so we can start a guild (we have to have 10 peeps) If anybody can think of some good names for one, feel free to post em. My head hurts...I think it's PMS (sorry guys) I really need to take pills, cause having a headache and trying to do math is a foolish idea (heh, that's my word of the day....foolish) ~Hee-Ter~    Current Mood: Better if my head didn't hurt! (Comment on this)
Friday, January 7th, 2005
10:57 am	Holy crap! It's been a while! Hola amigos!! It's been a while since I've posted since I've been busy doing nothing over winter break.  Seeing as how I'm back in Spalding's office with nothing to do again, I have time to post! Everything is looking pretty good here for me, nothing real interesting going on.... I talked to Joel at 3 something in the morning the other day (dumbass called me during my seepy time) We haven't talked since our trip to Gatlinburg back in August '04.  He talked about how his g/f hates Jennifer because she's "crazy"..... I have nothing to say regarding that, it's none of my business really, but it's unfair that a person's friends should have to suffer because of your signifigant others....(I can't say much, I have strange choices in guys)  Joel said Amanda is nice, so I need to make a point to meet her I guess.  Another thing he went on to say is how much he misses Willie and I, and that he feels bad for "blowing off" Willie.  I see it as, if you really want to see somebody, go see them, if someone cares about you as much as they say you do, they will understand..... trust me, I hate the fact that Danny's leaving in.....15 days, but I'm not keeping him from seeing the people he loves. Finally got World of Warcraft, and quite honestly, it's the sweetest game given unto man.  I play it a lot, and I'm trying to make peeps get it so we can start a guild.  I'm a Human (female) mage, lvl 11, named Xia, and an Undead (female) warlock, lvl 6, named Zela.  I am on the Dalaran server with Ryan and Vicky, and Jon's about to get it too. So JESSE if you reading this, lemme know where your at so we can party up!  Later peeps, I'm gonna go eat some old X-mas candy! ~Hee-Ter~     Current Mood: cheerful (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
12:08 am	What a nice weekend! Seeing as how I had this entire weekend off, I figure I should now take the time to reflect.... Saturday: Was good, woke up at 11:00 and my family came in from Alabama (my sister, her hubby, and their 4 kids!) So it's a full house now, but it's nice cause the kids are fun to mess with and play games with Sunday: Danny came over and we exchanged gifts.  I was very excited to find that he got me the this set of jewelry I've been asking for (necklace, earrings, and ring that are white gold w/sapphire)  And then we all played Cranium and Yahtzee (however you spell it)  I recommend Cranium...it's goooooooood! So now it's time for me to go to bed cause I have work in the morning from 10:15 to 4:45 (which sucks) but afterwards Danny and I are gonna go the mall and get my ring sized (which rocks). Night! ~Hee-Ter~  Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2004
1:13 pm	Nothing much going on here! Considering I have to work tonight, I'm in a pretty good mood.  I guess because I'm gonna get to see my buddy Jeff and hang out with Vicky, and possibly see Danny later too! And what's even better is my sister and her family are coming up to see us tomorrow, and I have the day off!  (Man that feels good to say I have a Saturday off....) About the only thing I'm nervous about is whether or not I'm working on Christmas Eve...My family celebrates during the day time, which could present a problem since Meijer doesn't close until 6 pm on X-mas Eve.  If I have to work, I might just call in...hopefully I won't lose my job, since I have perfect attendence and have never given stupid Meijer any problems. *crosses fingers* Hope it all works out... See ya'll around! ~Hee-Ter~ Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)